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Post by ruukah on Jun 27, 2007 16:39:51 GMT -5
Have you ever just wanted to crawl under a rock and die? Not from embarassment, but from things going so terribly wrong in your life that you can't imagine it ever getting better? I know there are a lot of people who have it worse than me.. I do know that. But still I find myself dangling near the end of my rope. My family NEEDS an apartment. WE NEED ONE BADLY. My husband and two kids and I are stuck with my parents right now and my parents...oh, where could I possible begin... Let's start with the fact that they blame me for my mom having cancer. Just because I'm here. They want my family out, even though they're the ones who convinced us to stay with them in the first place. It's all because of this "nutritionist" (actually she sells highly expensive herbal remedies for cancer)...who told my mother, and I quote, "get them out of your house or you will die". We never did ANYTHING to invite this! ...So, it's been my duty to call around and find us an affordable place. It's been my husband's duty to save money and work on getting a job transfer. Both of us have tried really hard.. We got so close.. My husband had a transfer lined up and I had an apartment lined up.. Freedom was RIGHT THERE staring us in the face.. And in less than 24 hours it all fell apart. Last night my husband was told that all possible job positions had been filled, and just now I got a call from the apartment complex that all the apartments are filled too. We're back to square one, zero, no hope. I want to cry. Scratch that, I am crying. Because I'm a Christian and I'm at least a little familiar with how God works, I know that he's still in control and that there must be a purpose to this. But it's just too hard for me to face this kind of uncertainty right now. It's like trying to hold an elephant on my shoulders. I can't do it. My family has suffered SO MUCH abuse here and we were SO CLOSE to our Exodus.. Now it's just gone! Poof!
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Post by Jess on Jun 27, 2007 16:54:29 GMT -5
you could move in with us if you didn't mind moving all the way to Florida (that is, until you found a permanent place to stay). We have plenty of extra room. your husband could work for my Dad. (he's a plumber and needs workers) I'd have to talk it over with my parents (that is, if you think you'd like this). but, besides prayer, this is all I can offer. *hugs*
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Post by The FullMetal Alchemist on Jun 27, 2007 16:54:30 GMT -5
OMG, this is extremely bad news! I would chip in and give you money, but I'm broke. I'm soo sorry about this! *Gives you uber big hug* I will pray that something good will come your way. *Hug*
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Post by Namazzi on Jun 27, 2007 17:07:32 GMT -5
Oh wow... if this "nutritionist" knew ANYTHING, she would know that having family living with you will NOT give you cancer and Will NOT make you die. WTH is up with that anyway? Cancer is something that just happens, it's nobodys fault. =/
*hugs* I'm so sorry. I know how hard it can be. I've never had kids and a family of my own, but my parents went threw much of the same thing with us kids. It'll all turn out. Just don't give up hope, and keep trying. It'll work out. =)
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Post by ruukah on Jun 27, 2007 17:12:03 GMT -5
Thanks guys.. The initial shock and misery has already subsided.. It's time to "rebuild" I suppose. Jess, I would love to move in with you guys and I soooo appreciate that offer! But my husband is absolutely set on moving to Iowa, even if we have to live out of a camper in his parents' yard (and we just might have to now). I've tried talking to him about other options but his mind's made up, so I'm going along with whatever he decides and supporting his decision. thelionking4ever - Thanks so much, that's very kind of you.. I think we're good on money for now, it's just finding an apartment and a job that's so difficult. We've been at it for months, almost a full year now, and still things refuse to line up for us. I've dared to wonder if perhaps we aren't meant to live in Iowa at all...but I can't tell my husband that. His heart is in Des Moines. We'll just have to dive back in and see what happens.
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Post by Jess on Jun 27, 2007 17:16:56 GMT -5
also pray and seek God's will on this (if you're not already) maybe he wants to take you a different direction. (I'm not God's spokesperson, so don't take my words as set in stone XD I'm just offering a suggestion)
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Post by ruukah on Jun 27, 2007 17:27:39 GMT -5
The-Lioness - Thanks.. I know it sounds absurd, it really does, and I can hardly believe it myself that my parents would accept what she's saying to them. But she's been "treating" my mom for a long time now, they've been having "meetings" several hours long every couple of weeks, and she has both of my parents absolutely convinced that my family is the cause. It all ties into stress.. Kids running around the house, that kind of thing. And of course since I gave birth to the kids, I'm the root cause. She (the "nutritionist") seems to have the idea I'm mooching off my parents and that's not true, my family supports itself except that we have no place to live, and we've done a lot for my parents since we've been here. We recently loaned them $900!!! We would have had an apartment long ago if my parents hadn't convinced us to live with them a year ago. Things are just so messed up, and I'm trying so hard not to be mad at this nutritionist. I had written her a nasty letter once, but then there was a death in her family and I heard she was upset over it, so I scrapped the letter. I'm so tempted to send another.
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Post by ruukah on Jun 27, 2007 17:30:12 GMT -5
Thanks Jess, you're probably right.. And if you are, then this will end up being mainly between my husband and God. Because my husband is the one who wants to move to Iowa so badly. He knows exactly when and where he wants to go and he's set on it. Me, I just want to move ANYWHERE. So whatever happens between my husband and God, me and the kids will be along for the ride.. I will pray and seek his will though, and try to support my husband & kids through whatever comes next.
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Post by Jess on Jun 28, 2007 11:25:14 GMT -5
well, do you think you could at least visit then? XD mebbe take a vacation to sunny florida to get away from it all and relax on a tourist filled, sunny beach?
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Post by ruukah on Jun 28, 2007 11:32:08 GMT -5
I wish!!!! lol. Believe me, if I'm ever able to do that I will.
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Post by Jess on Jun 28, 2007 11:41:15 GMT -5
yayz!! that would be cool. oh, I was telling my mom to pray for you guys and ur situation n all that, and I mentioned that u were trying to move to iowa. my brother overheard and wanted me to ask if you were amish. (i told him you weren't, cause if you were, u wouldn't use the comp, but he said ask anyway)
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Post by ruukah on Jun 28, 2007 23:07:42 GMT -5
Lol that's cool.. ;D I love the Amish, in fact I live very close to them. They're great people. Thanks for having your family pray for us. We need it so badly! There are a couple of new apartment listings and I called three of them today.. Two of them are "maybes", and Danny found another one tonight that he wants me to call about tomorrow. I hope one of them is the right one.
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Post by chenshui on Jun 23, 2011 1:58:15 GMT -5
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