Post by Papillon on Nov 20, 2007 19:56:26 GMT -5
I'm about to get into a long discussion, and I don't know whether it's really mature talk or not. Well, it's 'grown up talk' and I don't think there are any kiddies around here, so I guess I'm safe. Nothing inappropriate, I promise.
Now, I'm kind of upset over how I've been treated lately, not just by my ex boyfriend or my backstabbing friend who just left me, but by a whole lot of people who I have to go to school with. I always thought that they had matured all the way and would know that what they're saying is inappropriate.
Okay, to drop it to you. I'm black, many many people who have never seen me mistake me for being white, but I'm black. One of my classes has all white students though, actually, all of them do except for two, both of them have only two black students other than me. Well, I've been bugged and bugged again and again over my skin color by sooooo many people, even my teacher mentioned a negative about it, like that black people can shut up, which led to other students calling me stupid and ignorant. These are Seniors, they know better! Or at least they should. A girl who was my friend a long time ago also yelled *in front of a lot of people who I know* that Anna was a silly name for a black. I replaced another S- type cuss word with 'silly' BTW. I try and try to explain to her, I can't control what I've been named, or what color skin God gave me. I do hate the name Annabel, it's cost me a lot before, but that was elementary school. I've talked to Barbara a bit about it (you guys remember Barbara, right?) But it's just not the same, I need some advise from more people.
Now, you see, I'm especially confused about skin color and all that. I mean, how do I avoid being mocked. I always thought everyone was created equal, but I sometimes think it's completely unfair I'm stuck in dark skin. I really don't know how such a sudden change came over everybody. I used to be the one everybody looked up to when they needed help, but when I was homeschooled and I came back, everybody started to treat me horribly, using the N- word and the B- word on me. The N- word bothers me more than you may think, too, I never, never called someone that word, or even thought of it, so don't think I'm one of those people who are offended by one thing and turn around and do it to another person.
I just need help and advise about this issue. My life is really crashing right now and I feel abandoned by many of the people I was good friends with once before. Oh, and thanks for reading.
Now, I'm kind of upset over how I've been treated lately, not just by my ex boyfriend or my backstabbing friend who just left me, but by a whole lot of people who I have to go to school with. I always thought that they had matured all the way and would know that what they're saying is inappropriate.
Okay, to drop it to you. I'm black, many many people who have never seen me mistake me for being white, but I'm black. One of my classes has all white students though, actually, all of them do except for two, both of them have only two black students other than me. Well, I've been bugged and bugged again and again over my skin color by sooooo many people, even my teacher mentioned a negative about it, like that black people can shut up, which led to other students calling me stupid and ignorant. These are Seniors, they know better! Or at least they should. A girl who was my friend a long time ago also yelled *in front of a lot of people who I know* that Anna was a silly name for a black. I replaced another S- type cuss word with 'silly' BTW. I try and try to explain to her, I can't control what I've been named, or what color skin God gave me. I do hate the name Annabel, it's cost me a lot before, but that was elementary school. I've talked to Barbara a bit about it (you guys remember Barbara, right?) But it's just not the same, I need some advise from more people.
Now, you see, I'm especially confused about skin color and all that. I mean, how do I avoid being mocked. I always thought everyone was created equal, but I sometimes think it's completely unfair I'm stuck in dark skin. I really don't know how such a sudden change came over everybody. I used to be the one everybody looked up to when they needed help, but when I was homeschooled and I came back, everybody started to treat me horribly, using the N- word and the B- word on me. The N- word bothers me more than you may think, too, I never, never called someone that word, or even thought of it, so don't think I'm one of those people who are offended by one thing and turn around and do it to another person.
I just need help and advise about this issue. My life is really crashing right now and I feel abandoned by many of the people I was good friends with once before. Oh, and thanks for reading.